Nameless

Hey everybody sorry I haven't posted in a while, I've been grounded for the last week and then the last couple days I've been working on my other blog. I haven't yet put up anything about the novel series I'm working on, but that's mainly because I just recently got my laptop back and I can only use it between 5 and 9 on weeknights now and 5 and 12 on weekends.

I wrote this about Nick. I can't remember why, though...I guess it's just that when you have trust and abandonment issues like me, and the people you trust just leave...it leaves you feeling exposed...like your dress just got ripped off at prom kinda exposed...well I wouldn't know what that felt like...if you know from experience, I am SOOO sorry. Sucks to be you.





For so long, I hid in the shadows.
I wanted to be alone.
You pulled me out into the open
And left me in the spotlight alone.
I stood there speechless with stage fright
And couldn't remember my name
Lights all around shining so bright
I didn't know you were just a game.

I play my guitar
And sing out my heart
And every song reminds me of you

Stand in the dark
Remember the scars
From everything you put me through

You left me alone and
Struggling to move on
All the time calling your name
Where did you go
When I needed you the most?
I'm falling in love with you
All over again
Though you're just pretend

I sink back into my shadow
After being knocked off my pedestal
You swear you didn't mean it
But sorry doesn't cut it this time





Yeah, everyone, I won't have many side comments tonight. I'm having one of those moods where you're just really really emotional and you have no clue why.

I know why. There is something I know that could hurt someone I love, but it hurts her more if she doesn't find out. And her seemingly perfect boyfriend who just broke up with her isn't gonna tell her. He broke up with Sami 3 or 4 weeks ago. But there's something I know that she doesn't. And either him or Ivey needs to tell her. It's not my place to say because I'm not involved, but Ivey told me, and I'm the only one who knows besides Ivey and Garrett.

At this point, it's kinda obvious. You guys know I'm amazing at keeping secrets, but I spill out my guts to all of you because no one involved will see it therefore preventing me from making a mistake. You all should know at this point that Nick is a band geek (a sexy one) and so are Ivey and Garrett.

Know what...it'll go in my book. Read it in my other blog in the next week or two.