Heartless

So, I actually do not remember what was going on at this point...all I remember is that it was a Nick thing and a 'he had a girlfriend' thing. This was a bit longer into out relationship...if you could call it that at that point...we were both still new to it. To each other I mean. Well...yeah. And he was my first boyfriend, so I was sorta...engrossed. But in my defense, he liked that haha. As you'll see, after I let my writing be just poems, it got a lot better because I was less limited in rhyme scheme. Poems can be written in prose. This was originally a song, so it's mildly all over the place, but my poems get more and more emotional. Unless I wrote from boredom. Which you'll see.




Wasted tears
Lonely nights
So close
Yet so far away

All my life
I'll love no one
But you

Worthless pain
From this gaping hole
In my heart

I knew all along
But I'm not that strong
I fell for you
And now I'm done

Shattered heart
I've cried out all my tears
I gave you everything
But you're still not here
So much time
I could've had but lost
In your eyes
And now I'll pay the cost
Guess that's what I get
For falling for the heartless

Sick of all
The false hope
Holding on to
What's not there

Thought that I
Needed you
But I guess I knew
All along...

I want you back...
But I can't get hurt again
And you don't need me

But I won't cave
And I won't plead
For you to
Come back to me

Guess you'll have to learn
The hard way
That you gave up
On the best thing.




I think this was when him and Amanda (Mandi, a chick friend of mine) were breaking up and he came running straight to me. Lemme explain Mandi. She didn't know me til after they dated. Now we're a lot closer than we were then and she's with a good guy friend of mine, Austin (AKA Stag) and they're gonna be together forever. The end.