Meant To Be

I know the titles are kinda giving away the gist...jist...however you spell it...of the poems. This one, honest to God, almost landed me a record deal. But my mom lost the guy's number. I wrote this in the August of  '09 and everyone I showed it to liked it. Which was weird. It sounds better with my guitar, but it actually works as a poem too. Umm...I hadn't seen Nick for 3 months when I wrote this and school started back so I had 3 classes with him at that point (our schedules changed later so we only had 1st period) but I was happy. Cuz I'd missed him...





Every tear I cried
Helped me to realize
What I'm living without.

Endlessly searching for these
Pieces of me
That've been scattered around.

What happens when your world comes
Crashing down right in front of you?
What if the only way out is
Back the way you just came in through?

You seem so low
Come on, get higher.
Don't you know
You're my desire?
Just take a step back
And maybe then you'll see
Some things are meant to be.

There's no doubt about it
I can't live without you
Can't explain just how I feel...
Wrap my arms around you;
Pull me closer to you.
Guess this is how you know that we
Are meant to be...





I took a lot of material out of that when I was changing it to a poem. I'd rather not play it publicly though...my front yard is as public as I intend to get besides the local parks. And friend's houses. And my youth group if I go through with it.

For those of you who don't know this, I'm Assemblies of God. If you don't know what that is, it's the largest branch of the Pentecostal church. But we're not the ones that the term "Pentecostal" is identified with. "Pentecostal" has become a steriotype. They're considered the psycho church who dance with snakes and become possessed by the Holy Spirit and speak in tongues.

That is a completely different branch of Pentecostal. Assemblies of God speaks in tongue on occassion, but it's actually pretty cool. The different tongues are Arabic, Aramaic, Hebrew, Latin, and Greek. I wanna learn all of them. Latin is surprisingly easy to learn.

What the Assemblies of God church IS is that we're the ones with the hands up who sing and dance like crazy people and have a fully decked out praise team. And when I say fully decked out, I mean drums, bass, acoustic guitar, electric guitar, acoustic-electric guitar, keyboard, 2 backup singers, lead vocals, an electric effects pedal, and everyone on stage dancing with all the audience in front of the stage dancing and singing along. It's amazing. You get on a spiritual high. We're the ones crying for the whole 2 hours.

At my particular church, it's practically run by the youth. there's 1-3 things open 6 days out of the week specifically for youth. We also have fall and summer camps and Fine Arts which Danny, my youth pastor, says I absolutely MUST do. I love my church. Unfortunately, we moved about an hour away in May so, until I get my license in February, I can only go to my youth group once every other Wednesday. Which sucks because...have you felt like you can't cry anywhere but one place? That's my one place. So either I break down, or I dance. All over the gym. And I am NOT a good dancer. At all.